Just gotta start all over again...it sucks...
People talk, others listen, leads to disasters!!!!
Never felt so unsure and lost before.
The crazy things "friends" will say and do to you...
Listen to your self, not that of others!!!
Never again will I believe those rumors.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Thursday, March 20, 2008
To be or whatever
I don't know what to do....should I tell him what's really on my mind or continue to keep it all bottled up inside like usual? I know this is kinda of a rhetorical question but I thought it would help to at least get it out there.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Confusion of the Heart
Why is it so hard for someone to say how they truly feel?
Why can't they just take that chance and tell you, especially when they can tell you feel the same?
Is dating every going to be easy?
These are just some of the few questions I've asked myself lately. When we get close he seems to pull away for a short time because he doesn't want me to see this as a weakness. I know I can be hypocritical about this at time by pulling away myself, but he assures me to just go with it. And not to try to hide what I really want to say and feel. At first I thought this may be a control thing but the more I think about it and see how he reacts, I know it's something completely different.
And guys say women are hard to understand?!?
Why can't they just take that chance and tell you, especially when they can tell you feel the same?
Is dating every going to be easy?
These are just some of the few questions I've asked myself lately. When we get close he seems to pull away for a short time because he doesn't want me to see this as a weakness. I know I can be hypocritical about this at time by pulling away myself, but he assures me to just go with it. And not to try to hide what I really want to say and feel. At first I thought this may be a control thing but the more I think about it and see how he reacts, I know it's something completely different.
And guys say women are hard to understand?!?
Friday, February 22, 2008
The New Bed
So things are progressing more and more lately, which is always nice and it makes me on permanent cloud nine. We got rid of lots of things/people in our life that just seemed to be always butting in and trying to bring us down. Not only that but, my "CM" has opened up so much to me that I see him in a whole new light and it is helping me understand some of the things that he does. This in turn has brought me to why I'm really sharing this....
We just made are first big purchase together (besides rent, bills, etc.): A NEW BED!!!!! I know this may not sound like much to some but for us, this is a good thing and a step closer together for our relationship. Granted we have talked about things that are going to happen and trips we want to go on later down the road, but sometimes it seems more real when something physical happens. I know this may sound vain but anyone who has been in a relationship, know exactly what I am talking about. Anyway back to the bed! We have both gotten the best sleep of our lives in the past two nights and I don't think I' m ever going to be able to sleep on a "regular" bed again....ahhhhhhhh....the comfort...
We just made are first big purchase together (besides rent, bills, etc.): A NEW BED!!!!! I know this may not sound like much to some but for us, this is a good thing and a step closer together for our relationship. Granted we have talked about things that are going to happen and trips we want to go on later down the road, but sometimes it seems more real when something physical happens. I know this may sound vain but anyone who has been in a relationship, know exactly what I am talking about. Anyway back to the bed! We have both gotten the best sleep of our lives in the past two nights and I don't think I' m ever going to be able to sleep on a "regular" bed again....ahhhhhhhh....the comfort...
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Hearts~n~Tarts
Ok so we all know what tomorrow is and the stress that seems to consume so many of us each year, that the true meaning of love is lost on this day.
I have always seen myself as a "hopeless" romantic who prides myself on going above and beyond to make that special someone in my life feel even that much more special on Valentine's Day then I do every other day of the year. With the careful planning of candles to set the mood, preparing their favortie meal-down to dessert, and of course finding that perfect card to let them know how much they mean to me...blah, blah, blah...
This year it feels as if something has changed inside of me though, not feeling all that "hopeless" romantic stuff that I had in the past. To me it's been more of Valentine's Day every day, where I cook dinner, give a massage if needed, and just enjoy one anothers company after a long day at work. True I might try and find a card to make tomorrow not seem like just another day but I just don't see the point of getting myself all stressed and over-worked and what to do to show how much I care for him. I don't see it as being less romantic or cynical, yet being more practical in my way. When it comes down to it I rather use that $50 to pay more off a bill than to go and spend money on something that could be forgotten down the road.
I do want to add a little end note though for all those guys out there...No matter how much a woman says she doesn't want anything or that this day is just another...SHE IS LYING! Every girl wants that fairytale life to some extent and yes, romance just happens to be one of these things. From personal experience, I rather receive a heartfelt card and a flower (not a rose, they are too overused) on Valentine's Day, rather than on my birthday.
I have always seen myself as a "hopeless" romantic who prides myself on going above and beyond to make that special someone in my life feel even that much more special on Valentine's Day then I do every other day of the year. With the careful planning of candles to set the mood, preparing their favortie meal-down to dessert, and of course finding that perfect card to let them know how much they mean to me...blah, blah, blah...
This year it feels as if something has changed inside of me though, not feeling all that "hopeless" romantic stuff that I had in the past. To me it's been more of Valentine's Day every day, where I cook dinner, give a massage if needed, and just enjoy one anothers company after a long day at work. True I might try and find a card to make tomorrow not seem like just another day but I just don't see the point of getting myself all stressed and over-worked and what to do to show how much I care for him. I don't see it as being less romantic or cynical, yet being more practical in my way. When it comes down to it I rather use that $50 to pay more off a bill than to go and spend money on something that could be forgotten down the road.
I do want to add a little end note though for all those guys out there...No matter how much a woman says she doesn't want anything or that this day is just another...SHE IS LYING! Every girl wants that fairytale life to some extent and yes, romance just happens to be one of these things. From personal experience, I rather receive a heartfelt card and a flower (not a rose, they are too overused) on Valentine's Day, rather than on my birthday.
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