Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Seriously Now...

How come when things are going along great, someone has to come along and try to ruin it all? I guess I could deal with this on most occasions and just write it off as people who don't know me, are just trying to hate on me and judge something they have no idea about. But when that someone is supposed to be your friend, that's when it really pisses me off and mostly hurts.
Okay I'm getting ahead of myself on this one...surprise, surprise...
Anyway, the carpet man and I have been dating for roughly three weeks and I couldn't be happier than I have been lately. Not only has he helped me quit smoking (which was way overdue), but he has helped bring back my love for cooking, to which I had pretty much given up on because no one ever seem to want to try out my new recipes. He compliments me and shows me that the littlest things can make the greatest difference in any one's life. I know that in the first few months this is how all relationships start out and everything is happy-go-lucky as if nothing could go wrong, beginning of all relationship feeling. Well if that's all it is going to be for now, I'm all for it, I like this feeling and wouldn't change it for the world.
Then of course in comes the friends and no matter what they will be by your side, or at least that is what you believe. One in particular divulge some things to me about my current beau a little while ago about his past, as to try and warn me. Of course I took it all in but didn't say anything to him because everyone has a past (and yes including me), and when he was ready to share this information with me, I knew he would. I mean seriously, what right do I have to pry and pick at things that I didn't even know him when this all was going on; I know there is plenty that I rather keep to myself and until the time is right, I will do just that.
As to make matters worse, she decides to come "clean" and let him know that she already told me because she felt I had the right to know and since he hadn't said anything to me (that she knew of), that it was time to take it all into her own hands. Well needles to say (but of course I love to state the obvious just in case), he got upset and therefore is in a bad mood, which of course puts a damper on my mood as well.
So yeah, that's the problem with some people and opening their mouths when all that should be done is keeping them shut and opinions to themselves. And yes I know that maybe she was looking out for me and my interests but seriously now, was it that or that she is so unhappy with her current love life (non-existing) that she had to make a splash in mine...
Well I guess all that can be done now is wait until tonight and talk it all out with my "CM" and see what comes about and if it is meant to be or if my blinders are really on too tight. Then of course the question of what to do about this "friend" and if she can be trustworthy any more.

1 comment:

Nan said...

Thank you for stopping by my blog and leaving a comment, feel free to share the memories my musings bring to the surface, I love to read about others precious memories, I have one blog friend who tells stories in the current time [with small kids] that bring back memories of my 3 when they were little and I usually end up sharing them with her in her comments section, it's good for thinking of new topics to blog about too!

I remember the "new love" phase with my husband and though at the time never thought it could get better, I know what we have now I wouldn't trade for the new love feelings again. Maybe your friend has just opened the door for you to move on to that next phase, yes, too early, [only 3 weeks] but maybe it's a chance to express yourself honestly and the same for "CM" and your talk tonight can be a foundation for a more solid future? Good luck with it all.